Thursday, December 11, 2008

Inspiration.

I'm an easily inspired person. It doesn't take too much to get my creative wheels spinning. I can be so inspired by something so small, so insignificant. It can be something I've seen, something I have read, something I have seen someone else do. I know at that moment that I can do it too, and I should do it.

Seems simple enough, right?

My problem... self doubt. I suppose it goes back to a lack of self confidence, though I don't seem to suffer from that as much as I once did. I have trouble, sometimes, finding faith in myself. I am more than capable of a lot of things, but I guess I have this underlying fear of failing miserably and looking stupid in the process.

I suppose that has a lot to do with why it took so long for me to start this blog.

I've always enjoyed writing. I discovered a love for it a long time ago, in my middle school/high school days. I wrote all the time back then. Because of the lack of confidence I had in myself, sharing it was something I didn't do often. There was a fear that what I thought was a great piece of writing would be seen by others as a little less than *shrug* OK. Any compliments from people, and I took that as them being nice, not wanting to hurt my feelings. I gave up on this creative outlet back then.

I'm trying to regain my confidence in writing. I started this blog first and foremost, and I am actually considering trying to channel this into stories again. I haven't quite worked up the nerve to venture any further than this yet, but I would like to think it's a possibility.

I have a million excuses as to why I can't do it. No time, no fresh ideas. Nothing I have to say can be that interesting.

I have got to stop holding myself back.

3 comments:

Katy said...

I think you're doing a great job so far! :) This is a great way to warm yourself up for something bigger.

Hiya, I'm Kristie. said...

We are our own worst enemies, aren't we? I totally get it.

Danielle-lee said...

You ARE a good writer! Keep it up. I agree with Kristie-we are REALLY our own worst enemies.